day 3.. alil bit of a crave day

Hi everyone and happy Thursday :).

 

So this morning, and whilst sitting at work… I wanted BISCUITS. Bourbons to be precise. I wanted that biscuit more than I wanted Michael Fassbender.. and trust me, that’s a LOT.

 

I almost nearly went to the shop to buy them! BUT, instead, I went to my Facebook support group and my friend Emily asked ‘is it really worth it,’ and I stopped, had a think, and said ‘NO, it really isn’t’! So I resisted 🙂 Ate a banana instead too which is a zillion times healthier.

 

Lunch time consisted of ham and cucumber sandwiches on wholemeal bread, and then my mum peeled and sliced me an apple 😀 it was like I was at school again.

 

No idea at all what’s for dinner!

 

Not gonna lie though, as per my previous blog, I still am having ‘tea time’ which is a chocolate and crisps. I know that sounds like I’m never gonna lose weight, but I love them and I think I’d cry without. It’s my little ‘thing’. Every evening, I go home, have a small choc and crisps and watch Hollyoaks… like a slob 😦 BUT again, I will reiterate the fact that this has always been how it is and I have managed in the past to lose weight by cutting down on the others.

 

Just a short blog today I’m afraid as gotta dash off but will do a bigger one tomorrow… and then next week is my ‘weigh day’ eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!

 

Bye all 🙂 xxx

Day 2 of the lovely so called ‘diet’

Hi all

Welcome to my daily update 🙂

Hmmmm well this morning, I woke up and the 1st thing I thought about was biscuits. Ummm, seriously? what’s wrong with my head. BISCUITS 1st thing in the morning?!! Sadly though, this is what I have been used to eating every day so guess my body had a little craving… but I did NOT give in to it B-)

Instead I ate a banana. What a difference. However, this banana was all newly yellow from green so it was too hard 😦 (get your dirty minds out the gutter, honestly *shakes head*) I like banana’s when they’re a little brownish and softer, apparently this is when they contain more sugar so sounds about right.

Had my daily tuna sarni today for lunch with cucumber which was nice… but as I have this for all week, I can see me getting bored VERY quickly so will change it up next week.

No idea what’s for dinner tonight, when I went home at lunch I saw my mum crying from chopping up onions, along with garlic and yellow peppers so it at least looks healthy so far.

I decided that, instead of eating snacks at work if I felt a lil hungry (although today I’ve felt quite full) and to not crave sugar, I would buy diet coke after my lunch!

The unhealthiest thing you can drink I know. Fizzy drinks are terrible but I find them filling and then I don’t want sweets etc. I used to drink a glass of diet coke every day, I don’t like the taste of full fat coke even though, really, it’s better for you as diet coke is riddled with sweeteners which link to cancers! (not that full fat coke is good for you even slightly by the way)

However, a few months ago I decided, for that reason, to cut it out of my daily routine. I thought it would be really hard and that I would crave it non stop, but you know what, it was easy after a week! Now, and take the few sips I had today for example, I find it tastes vile. Really do. Don’t even know why I bought it today because I’m probably not going to drink it so it won’t really settle any sugar craving after all. And to think, this is the drink I used to have daily.

Oh don’t get me wrong, if it’s a really hot summers day, I don’t mind drinking an ice-cold diet coke with a lovely slice of lemon or lime in a pub or restaurant, but that’s probably because it’s so weakened down that it doesn’t taste as ‘sharp’ as when you get it in a new bottle.

Must say though, I still do like a Dr Pepper. Just don’t drink it hardly ever. Nope, instead I drink water and just that. I don’t like flavoured water (contains sugar) and I only like juice that’s 100% pure and not from concentrate (especially the innocent smoothies… mmm mmmm) but I don’t drink juice unless it happens to be in the house. Again, probably due to the sugar content… although these are natural sugars so not harmful.

Funnily enough, talking about fizzy drinks, I work for a magazine company and we’re doing a Dr’s related issue and got talking about foods that are meant to be good for you but have hidden nasties in them. OK, obviously diet coke is not known to be good for you, but it reminded me of a certain weight loss meeting I had last year when the leader said ‘ohhh drink as much as you like, it has no fat so you can drink it all day’ I mean… seriously? Is this meant to be good advice? I actually found it quite shocking but hey ho. Probably why I don’t go back as most of these leaders are uneducated regarding nutrition sadly. I don’t believe being told that, and eating haribo sweets isn’t ‘bad’ for you contributes to good nutritional advice

My editor also mentioned the test on YouTube about pouring coke onto raw pork and you see worms or maggots coming out. OH. MY.GOD. I wanted to puke. Ok so that’s really more about pork than the coke it’s self but I mean, doesn’t it just make you think… what the hell do we put into our bodies! It’s ALL about being a vegetarian. It’s just a shame I know I would never be able to become a veggie. I like the taste of certain meats too much. Also, I’m Greek. How would I ever attend family functions when 90% of their food is meat!

I probably have come way off track to what I was originally going to post today. Ha, as always, I trail off into my own little world and go off subject. But as this is more of a daily diary than just talking about losing weight, I think it’s fine 😉

By the way, I would say my mood today is quite… content. I don’t feel hungry, I don’t feel like I’m craving anything bad (apart from my initial morning thought) and I don’t think that I can’t keep this up 🙂

Tell you what, blogging is really helping me. I find it so enjoyable and therapeutic and have even been offered to do it for the website of the magazine I work for so… yay! I’ll be an actual published blogger 😀

Until tomorrow…. goodbye and Godspeed 😀

Ath xXx

First day of my ‘diet’

Hi All

So here is day 1 if my ‘diet’ or, just cutting crap out as I’d prefer to think of it.

Thing is, when I say ‘cut crap out’ I don’t mean it 100% I know, I know… how am I ever going to lose weight if I don’t stop the over load of crisps and chocolate?

Well,  I like the old saying of ‘a little of what you fancy is fine’ and that ‘your body needs all types of fats etc for it to break it down’.. or, something along those lines (maybe I’m making it up to make myself feel good)

But the difference I’m making is cutting things out like a pack of biscuits for breakfast to myself! Snacking on cakes and sweets at work, and I will be cutting down on my portion size also.

Ok so, what have I eaten today… ? Well, I had a banana for breakfast, lunch consisted of a tuna sarnie (on WHOLEMEAL bread I might add) with lettuce and tonight, hmmm think it’s the bad process food my mum’s making – Garlic Chicken Kievs… YUMSTERS!

I’m joining the choir tonight! Remember in my last blog I stated how my dream was to be on the Westend Stage? Well, this isn’t exactly the Westend, but it’s still me singing. And hopefully next month (when I have some more money) I’ll start up my dance classes again to keep fit too.

Me going there tonight means I won’t be at home able to do my usual of eating chocolate and crisps so I’m happy re that.

See, since I was a kid, I have had a habbit thanks to my mum that, we eat dinner at 9pm and before that, around 6pm… we have ‘tea time’. This always consisted of a chocolate and crisps. Yup, it’s a shocker how I’m overweight I know. But the point is, this is the routine I’ve had almost all my life and it’s very hard to break, especially when my mums sitting down eating it in front of me when I’ve tried to resist and the gap between the times of having eaten lunch and the time my mum cooks. I dunno, I blame the parents myself! 😉

Yes I know I could cook for myself. But things are sometimes easier said than done. For one, we don’t have an oven! True story. It broke years ago and my mum has not been able to replace it so cooks certain things in the oven part of our microwave. But regardless of this fact, if I’ve come home after work, tired, the last thing I want to do it cook for myself when I know my mum is going to be cooking later on and eating in front of me. Also, she’s a damn good cook and I don’t even know where to begin! PLUS, money wise at the moment is tough, so I can’t afford to buy extra ‘healthy’ foods when, again, I know my mother will be cooking.

Yup, some may excuses, I say… FACT. But it’s fine. I’ve managed to lose weight this way loads of times before. The only reason it comes back is because I’ve let it. I’ve allowed myself to get back into eating snacks at work and extra junk.

So here I am, trying again for the millionth time. Day one so far= good. Lets see what day 2 brings…

Till then, this is me, signing out 😀

xXx