day 3.. alil bit of a crave day

Hi everyone and happy Thursday :).

 

So this morning, and whilst sitting at work… I wanted BISCUITS. Bourbons to be precise. I wanted that biscuit more than I wanted Michael Fassbender.. and trust me, that’s a LOT.

 

I almost nearly went to the shop to buy them! BUT, instead, I went to my Facebook support group and my friend Emily asked ‘is it really worth it,’ and I stopped, had a think, and said ‘NO, it really isn’t’! So I resisted 🙂 Ate a banana instead too which is a zillion times healthier.

 

Lunch time consisted of ham and cucumber sandwiches on wholemeal bread, and then my mum peeled and sliced me an apple 😀 it was like I was at school again.

 

No idea at all what’s for dinner!

 

Not gonna lie though, as per my previous blog, I still am having ‘tea time’ which is a chocolate and crisps. I know that sounds like I’m never gonna lose weight, but I love them and I think I’d cry without. It’s my little ‘thing’. Every evening, I go home, have a small choc and crisps and watch Hollyoaks… like a slob 😦 BUT again, I will reiterate the fact that this has always been how it is and I have managed in the past to lose weight by cutting down on the others.

 

Just a short blog today I’m afraid as gotta dash off but will do a bigger one tomorrow… and then next week is my ‘weigh day’ eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!

 

Bye all 🙂 xxx

Day 2 of the lovely so called ‘diet’

Hi all

Welcome to my daily update 🙂

Hmmmm well this morning, I woke up and the 1st thing I thought about was biscuits. Ummm, seriously? what’s wrong with my head. BISCUITS 1st thing in the morning?!! Sadly though, this is what I have been used to eating every day so guess my body had a little craving… but I did NOT give in to it B-)

Instead I ate a banana. What a difference. However, this banana was all newly yellow from green so it was too hard 😦 (get your dirty minds out the gutter, honestly *shakes head*) I like banana’s when they’re a little brownish and softer, apparently this is when they contain more sugar so sounds about right.

Had my daily tuna sarni today for lunch with cucumber which was nice… but as I have this for all week, I can see me getting bored VERY quickly so will change it up next week.

No idea what’s for dinner tonight, when I went home at lunch I saw my mum crying from chopping up onions, along with garlic and yellow peppers so it at least looks healthy so far.

I decided that, instead of eating snacks at work if I felt a lil hungry (although today I’ve felt quite full) and to not crave sugar, I would buy diet coke after my lunch!

The unhealthiest thing you can drink I know. Fizzy drinks are terrible but I find them filling and then I don’t want sweets etc. I used to drink a glass of diet coke every day, I don’t like the taste of full fat coke even though, really, it’s better for you as diet coke is riddled with sweeteners which link to cancers! (not that full fat coke is good for you even slightly by the way)

However, a few months ago I decided, for that reason, to cut it out of my daily routine. I thought it would be really hard and that I would crave it non stop, but you know what, it was easy after a week! Now, and take the few sips I had today for example, I find it tastes vile. Really do. Don’t even know why I bought it today because I’m probably not going to drink it so it won’t really settle any sugar craving after all. And to think, this is the drink I used to have daily.

Oh don’t get me wrong, if it’s a really hot summers day, I don’t mind drinking an ice-cold diet coke with a lovely slice of lemon or lime in a pub or restaurant, but that’s probably because it’s so weakened down that it doesn’t taste as ‘sharp’ as when you get it in a new bottle.

Must say though, I still do like a Dr Pepper. Just don’t drink it hardly ever. Nope, instead I drink water and just that. I don’t like flavoured water (contains sugar) and I only like juice that’s 100% pure and not from concentrate (especially the innocent smoothies… mmm mmmm) but I don’t drink juice unless it happens to be in the house. Again, probably due to the sugar content… although these are natural sugars so not harmful.

Funnily enough, talking about fizzy drinks, I work for a magazine company and we’re doing a Dr’s related issue and got talking about foods that are meant to be good for you but have hidden nasties in them. OK, obviously diet coke is not known to be good for you, but it reminded me of a certain weight loss meeting I had last year when the leader said ‘ohhh drink as much as you like, it has no fat so you can drink it all day’ I mean… seriously? Is this meant to be good advice? I actually found it quite shocking but hey ho. Probably why I don’t go back as most of these leaders are uneducated regarding nutrition sadly. I don’t believe being told that, and eating haribo sweets isn’t ‘bad’ for you contributes to good nutritional advice

My editor also mentioned the test on YouTube about pouring coke onto raw pork and you see worms or maggots coming out. OH. MY.GOD. I wanted to puke. Ok so that’s really more about pork than the coke it’s self but I mean, doesn’t it just make you think… what the hell do we put into our bodies! It’s ALL about being a vegetarian. It’s just a shame I know I would never be able to become a veggie. I like the taste of certain meats too much. Also, I’m Greek. How would I ever attend family functions when 90% of their food is meat!

I probably have come way off track to what I was originally going to post today. Ha, as always, I trail off into my own little world and go off subject. But as this is more of a daily diary than just talking about losing weight, I think it’s fine 😉

By the way, I would say my mood today is quite… content. I don’t feel hungry, I don’t feel like I’m craving anything bad (apart from my initial morning thought) and I don’t think that I can’t keep this up 🙂

Tell you what, blogging is really helping me. I find it so enjoyable and therapeutic and have even been offered to do it for the website of the magazine I work for so… yay! I’ll be an actual published blogger 😀

Until tomorrow…. goodbye and Godspeed 😀

Ath xXx

Hello world!

Me at my current weight 🙂

Hi all and welcome to my blog! 🙂

My boyfriend has been telling me to do this on and off for ages now and I just didn’t bother. But now, seeing how much enjoyment my sister is getting from doing it, along with a friend starting up a weight loss group, I decided to start doing this.

It will be an honest outlook on how the ‘dieter’ works. The highs and the lows. This is my personal and honest outlook in how I feel when on a diet and I’m sure, as many of you who have been, or are still on a diet, will understand the long route it takes to regain your confidence back.

So lets start from the top:

I have always struggled with my weight. Even when I didn’t really have a reason to worry.

The most prolific moment for me in knowing I had a weight issue was when I was around 9(!) when, for some reason that I can’t even begin to remember, the teachers were weighing us and shouting the weight of each student to fellow classmates (cruel really, when I look back on this) I remember being 7 stone and one of the boys shouted ‘7 stones?? That’s more than me!’ and laughed 😦 I felt humiliated.

Then later in my secondary school life, I had gained more weight and was not very confident at all. I was awful in P.E. hated it. hated wearing the little P.E uniform knowing my chunky legs would be on display, hated becoming breathless so easily after running for only 1 minute (seemed like an eternity) and hated always being picked last because people knew I wasn’t fit enough to keep up.

I never had a boyfriend in school and although I was never bullied, I felt low and shy. Everyone put my weight down to puppy fat and that it would go when I grew up… and by 16… they were right!

I started my performing arts college from the age of 16-18. These were the best years of my life for many reasons. I had a great circle of friends, had gone down to 8st 5lbs (smallest I’ve ever been) and gained confidence. It’s also when I had my first boyfriend 😉

As you can imagine, performing arts is a very active course where you are almost on your feet every day and do dance classes so it was easy to stay in shape. I would be there from early in the morning, to come show days, late at night so I didn’t really have a steady eating pattern. I would eat chips and chinese food most days there, but I guess as I was so active, I just didn’t gain the weight.

I then graduated… and that’s where it all went downhill.

I got an office job working as a receptionist at the age of 18. This, as you can imagine, consisted of nothing but sitting down ALL day snacking from boredom. A vast contrast from the 6 months prior.

Most of my working life has consisted of me sitting down all day dealing with computers.

I’m also a qualified beauty therapist having worked in a salon (over a year ago now) or 2 years and I was almost certain that I’d lose weight being in this enviornment. Ya’know, working on my feet all day, only having 30 mins for lunch… but it didn’t make one difference. Why?? Oh yea, that’s it, still ate like a hog!

Since then, I have struggled up and down with my weight and am now the heaviest I have ever been (12 stone) and also, find it the hardest I ever have to go on a diet. Why?? Who knows. Maybe it’s my age that I don’t seem to have the energy I once had to dance every day. Maybe its boredom in my life as, lets face it, I’m not exactly on the Westend stage as I had imagined my life would be. All I know is, it’s hard.

Some people reading this who may be bigger than me may think ’12 stone is nothing compared to me so she can’t talk’ but you must remember, it’s not about how much someone may weigh, its a psychological feeling that everyone goes through when dealing with a weight issue, be it too big OR too small.

So this is where I’m at. 29 years old, 12 stone exactly and trying to lose weight for no one other than ME.

If I slip up, and lets face it, I probably will (I’m human) I don’t need the usual ‘oh I knew you would, diets just don’t work for you’ that doesn’t help. Instead a simple ‘don’t worry, you can try again’ will do.

Follow me on my quest to go back to my ideal and healthy weight of 9st. I will be posting pics here and there as this is where it all starts!

I’d also love to hear from anyone else going through anything similar and if you have any questions regarding tips etc (as i have done quite a few diets in my time which have worked) let me know and I’d be happy to talk 🙂

For now, this is me… signing OUT! xXx